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it is an infection,
an air-born disease
springing from
your eyelashes
and your paper jesus'.
it's inside
porcelain girls with their pale lips and hidden
scars, lonely boys whispering around the pearls
on their tongues, aliens with razor blade dreams
and their heroin-addled phantom lovers.
and dear god it's like reading and realizing you're
there and you are the boygirl who is being torn
down and apart and through because really this
book is exactly like your world, our world, except
it's never been real.
and you are trying to explain your empty feeling
with words that mean nothing but are completely
filled with knowing and i wish i could put that
in bold or something because that is the whole point
of this poem. it was written because i am empty
and you are empty but we both are so very alive.
we are so very alive and scared and so fucking
passionate and i love that word because there
is no other word that is heavier or more free and
sometimes reality is not what we wished for but
sometimes it does not matter because
we were created
to be stronger
and i try to destroy my world of jumbled words
and jigsaw puzzles and insecurities and really it
is not enough.
sometimes late at night i lie there filled with
insomnia and nightmares and i listen and realize
that this emptiness feels like
breathing in
and out.
an air-born disease
springing from
your eyelashes
and your paper jesus'.
it's inside
porcelain girls with their pale lips and hidden
scars, lonely boys whispering around the pearls
on their tongues, aliens with razor blade dreams
and their heroin-addled phantom lovers.
and dear god it's like reading and realizing you're
there and you are the boygirl who is being torn
down and apart and through because really this
book is exactly like your world, our world, except
it's never been real.
and you are trying to explain your empty feeling
with words that mean nothing but are completely
filled with knowing and i wish i could put that
in bold or something because that is the whole point
of this poem. it was written because i am empty
and you are empty but we both are so very alive.
we are so very alive and scared and so fucking
passionate and i love that word because there
is no other word that is heavier or more free and
sometimes reality is not what we wished for but
sometimes it does not matter because
we were created
to be stronger
and i try to destroy my world of jumbled words
and jigsaw puzzles and insecurities and really it
is not enough.
sometimes late at night i lie there filled with
insomnia and nightmares and i listen and realize
that this emptiness feels like
breathing in
and out.
Literature
God
You were supernatural bones
against my muscle -
I woke up with bruises
around my ankles
where I'd been wrapped
about you like snake skin.
You said God lived in my heels,
spent hours peeling
them apart,
disappointed in the marrow
and grey finches
in my feet -
you'd been looking
for something greater
than summer trills
and humanity.
You drew me in the margins
of your universe
when my insides depressed you,
pushed me to the midnight hours
where I looked like an apparition
and finally suited
your spiritual hands.
Literature
If There Is A God
I'm the girl in the pictures with the pretty smile,
The lying face that tells you nothing,
Don't I look innocent?
Don't I look nice?
Ain't I peaceful?
Well, think twice.
I cut, I stain,
My eyes red from tears,
If there is a God, then why am I here?
Having to fake smiles in pictures I hate,
Don't I seem smart?
Don't I look happy?
Like the world isn't against me?
All lies.
I'm told what to do and where to go,
The only time I get to myself is when I'm cradling a knife above my wrist,
Thinking, Should I do it again, is this really worth it?
But it always comes to new scars,
Don't I look sweet?
Don't I look sane?
If you met me,
Literature
Yes, good, okay
a blank page is my piano.
and sometimes, you have to ignore the truth
to accept it more thoroughly
when the light finally falls against your kneecaps
in bars of sun
and you see the hair you missed shaving
and you don't care, really, because you know who you are.
When this happens,
it is not like the shifting of a puzzle piece back into its place;
it is not like the moon being brighter than usual, it is not a shooting star,
it is not a bittersweet release. It is a song
careening off the tip of a worn tongue and catching
a rainbow
on the back of its notes,
all
their clefs and colors
settling into your bones.
It is not an af
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My god I do love your work. I don't know if I've ever said that but something about it. It captures something that nearly everyone on this earth misses, something that only people with a certain experience can truly grasp the depths of. Always keep writing,